I am not about to update Post-America pages, my (first) "American Book" -- when I writing it (mid 1990s) I didn't have the thought about the Grand Depression and World Without America ... My visions were much more catastrophic; I believe that we are the end of the world -- what could be more horrific tan that?
I still believe it: and more song and dance the youtubers do, more I realize how right were my teen years' apocalyptic visions.
Of course, at the time (1960s) I thought that the soviet Life is "being" after the end of Being... I didn't know that it came from the West, as the communist Party were telling me. I didn't believe tham. Why? Because they were idiots. By the tale of sound and furry was told by an idiot, eh?
I am not about to rework the old pages of Post-America, and i do not know if I will write The Grand Depression (Project "2008"). I gave up on writing books after the realization that I have to publish them by myself.
I probably die, trying to finish my Utopia Project (u21.us), and it is, of course, web-show of unknown to me (yet) forms...
Only my notes for this book is here. The story is not. I and you have to wait when I am done with SELF and POV.
Read PM books and you will understand, why spell it PostAmeriKa:
Personal Nonfiction
Do you see what I mean? "Personal Nonfiction"? What is that? I bet I stole it somewhere when I thought about publishing the book. Not anymore. But can you be organized, Anatoly? Don't you think about your readers?
Summary
I wait for this book to grow by itself. I wait for this book to write me. I do not know anymore how to "write" -- I do not want to talk about what I know, this is not the reason for my notes -- I am searching for what I do not know.
Questions
How to tie my personal story with my thoughts? Maybe the metaphysics pages are not too personal? Not emotional enough to be my thoughts?
Dear readers, I do not believe in writing and reading. I believe in dialogic monologues. I perform. It's an act, which only looks like writing. You perform, calling it "reading".
2005. I never thought that I will be writting this book for the rest of my life. And will never finish it... Well, this is what online writing means...
This book is about me again. I try to write about "my experience," but somehow my "reading" of America is more important. I do not know what "America" is, I write about "America I know"...
PostAmeriKa
One has to be new to this land in order to notice, how strange is everything in this country. The name is after some guy "Amerigo Vespucci," who never was here! Hard to imagine in Europe. Or anywhere. The nation that is changing its makeup every generation. I am in a different America, comparing with the place I came to twenty five years ago. I kind of understand why the "founding fathers" (what is that? a company?) didn't know if the experiment would last...
It did, it does... and it will. In some forms. And that is the subject of the book "PostAmeriKa". America is always "post," it has no past, not even a simple yesterday...
I try to be simple; it's my story and I want to tell it for my children. They are old enough to understand a love story. The story of their parents. And maybe my grandchildren will read it too one day. I keep my metaphysics notes as a part of the story, because this is what I wrote, while my family life was falling apart. I still believe that the notes can provide personal and historical background for events we experienced.
I had to make a new directory "Personal Politics" (left) in order not to trash pages with the current reflections. I only wish I could vote for somebody besides losers. But I vote. And I write. I do it for myself. For my sanity. Am I glad that I wasn't born here?
I wasn't. And I was. I am twenty five.
56 is my "historical" age.
I am slightly older than my American born children.
@2000-2003 film-north * NEXT: Intro *
Where are many things I do not understand on the pages of "PostAmeriKa" -- what are the graphics for? What does it mean? Why did I put them in? Where are many things I do not know how to explain -- and I don't have to. I am the publisher. I know that I should ask myself hard questions... All right!
America After America? Or should I say "America After USA"?
The United States of America -— also referred to as the United States, the USA, the U.S., America, the States, and (poetically) Columbia.
U.S. culture has a large influence on the rest of the world, especially the Western world. This influence is sometimes criticized as cultural imperialism. U.S. music is heard all over the world, and it is the sire of such forms as blues and jazz and had a primary hand in the shaping of modern rock and roll and popular music culture.
"U.S. culture"? Not "American Culture"? Oh, the tyranny of PC! Ah, the "cultural imperialism"! NTL, "Elvis Presley, an American singer and star who had a large impact on music and youth culture in the world"...
The story ends during the Christmass of the year 2000. Or maybe only the plot ends, not the story....
Where are many things I do not understand on the pages of "PostAmeriKa" -- what are the graphics for? What does it mean? Why did I put them in? Where are many things I do not know how to explain -- and I don't have to. I am the publisher. I know that I should ask myself hard questions... All right!
