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I left my handwritten diaries to a chance; most likely it won't survive.

And this is normal.

What I do now (online) is not.

I have to have my notes as for publication, for reading by others, not just me.

It's not simply different, but the OPPOSITE of traditional diaries format.

I leave the question "why" and focus on "how" -- WHAT is it?

I do not know too many things, most important things -- and I have to leave to others; my self-reflections are limited [and I have to remember it].


I do not use much my blogs (they are for communications, and I am not), I should try notes in my calendars [ perhaps, the true matrix for diary ].

Is this (a)diary for notes [en] on diary.vtheatre.net?

... In some way this is what I do not know about myself; even more -- and "what I do not want to know about myself."

"Records" are opposite of "reflections"!

Maybe, the only place where I am not writing about myself -- NB.

Where I AM writing.

Not MY writing but ME-writing.


No beggining (1, 2, 3 and other "original" pages) -- and no end.


... What about preface and ps pages?

What about this (accidental) narrative?

Diary *
The flash web banner was another attempt to write a diary. There are some diary pages in WRITE directories... I probably should give up on the idea.
Oct. 2005. How silly of me! Did I really think of keep a diary online? How could I? Only because so many do? Shame.

Featured Pages: 2001

Yes, this is a "project" -- writing or digital record. I have no plan for it, only a hintch that something is there. Some form I do not know yet. Maybe it will take years before I see it, developed by the blind fate...

Yes, it's connected with my other writing. To take away the texts that do not belong to the books. And to help the books. To test what should be there.

Yes, this is an extra step from the email messages to letters....

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mini-Chekhov05: Schiele-she


Nothing and nobody will help you. You simply have to take it. Accept it... and forget about it.

After UAF ... 2009

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... 2010.

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2005: antohins.vtheatre.net
Strange! I accuse myself for being very personal in my writing, but I do not have a single "personal page"!

Even in my my diaries it's always about something big -- history, thoughts... you can't even see what is my day was like.

I never had time for myself.

I write, I take notes, but it's for some project, purpose, task and etc.


First, time. Too many different "projects" -- web is the biggest, although I think that it's a tool for writing and classes. I still wait for that critical mass, when the webpages will have it own independent life. Sometimes I think that I'm almost there. But there is another danger -- it will become a business (and I am not ready for that). I make less mistakes as a webmaster (it got simpler in design), but having it as a business is another game with the new rules.