2008 -- I have to think ahead : 2010?
Nov. 4 is the day -- filmplus.org/politics/2008 : next four years. Obama's Real Situation -- why I see it, the Grand Depression?
Not even GD 2.0 ?
Grand vs. Great
... filmplus.org/amer  -- Post-America, and then -- Without America?
The End of my American Life -- really?
African one? A = Anatoly, A = American, A = Alaskan
Of course, I have my plans [ teatr.us ], I always had plans, a lot of them.
I even had my plans for America.
I was writing the Book, which is unpublished.
And it will be never published.
I had plans for Alaska.
What came out of my plans?
I even wanted to plan my death.
Another round of "Anatoly Travels" -- but I am careful; I will not be in Africa... not really. I have to preserve my hopes of Africa from Africa, I shall continue to preserve my dreams of life from Life. I won't let it be destroyed by "real" Ethiopia... What is REAL Ethiopia? My visions of it are more important -- they are real. The so-called "real" is overrated.
... for ethio.vtheatre.net.
BTW, the Grand Depression does take place -- the crisis of the spiritual, the finale of the past century and millennium.
Oh, the ugly history, the history of ugliness! I am glad that you are dead. Here it is, the death of lies, the death of Utopias -- long live Utopia!
My Utopia, Utopia free from Utopians, from vulgar dreamers with their giftless dreams.
Perhaps I am a misanthrope, and even misanthropist, but I have to preserve myself and mine. Even if it's just dreams. Especially, when it's dreams.
All right, the Dreams Project [Utopia} -- "P2009"
diary.vtheatre.net/2009 [ru] ?
... see diary.vtheatre.net/2008 pages! Not one year, not a decade, but forever? No America (as we know) after the "recovery" from the Grand Depression. And no democracy... Class, of vertical, perhaps, every "slavery like" social organization.
... and Ethiopia?
... foxmarks.com ethiopia | LUL
First day of 2009 -- time to think about 2010?
Run, run, run...
... Did I lose interest in ... future? Time? History? But not myself?
Reaction to Obama's election? [ As if the humanity will take care of itself? ] Cosmism (and communism) on the march, the global and universal existence is secure. Will Individual survive? [My Red Book] Human without Man? [ Theology of Technology and tech.vtheatre.net ]
Summer: After making a lot of NEW pages for web.filmplus.org...
My reaction/afterthoughts to Caligari?
Nothing. Nothing beside realization that I am Caligari.
Realization that I am Anti-Faust, that I do not want to understand ALL and EVERYTHING.
On the contrary, I want to spare from knowing -- knowing more stupid minds and faces, more of the same...
I am this anti-literature and Anti-loving-it-all... almost is an "Anti-Christ" of later days [tricks of irony is too much for my English].
It was in me since I noticed myself -- The Rejection.
It was fifty years ago. That I remember well.
I wanted "another" life; the life that I was in -- oh, how unattractive it was!
As a humanist I supposed to find good in evil, high in low, accept... I was a bad communist and humanist. It was late for humanism: I knew it even before I read about it. [ 2009.htm ]
4.14.09. I am not dead. Question mark?
I am (so) lucky to witness it!
"Year" pages -- why now? Getting closer to diary format?Where to keep my (A)diary? A = African?
Summer'09 -- moving to Addis Ababa.
Fall -- Teatr Lul Academy [teatr.us] lul.vtheatre.net/ref
How to write PS for my American Life?
I am still writing PS for my Russian experience!
... Year 2008 playlist :
Politics & Movies -- film.vtheatre.net/2008 -- goodbye!
Between "Past and Future"? How trivial!
|From Anatoly XXI|
And the form?
dreams.vtheatre.net -- over there. The rest of "writing" about beautiful...
I am tired of teaching, research and service.
... The end of Dr. Caligari.
... end of my calendar. The end of my social life. I love people when they are dead. Only the best of them lives.
My diary.vtheatre.net is not needed? I am not sure that I want to stay "in touch" with myself, the natural next step ...
Now I understand God, the silence. What to talk about with them?
My feelings are opposite to my thoughts [tech.vtheatre.net], I am rejecting myself. It's about time.
Becoming a Buddhist, old man. As it's supposed to be.
Why read and write? Not enough to feel and think?
calendar -- transition from instructions to writing... webook.com/project/Red-Terror -- how to work on trilogy [ A Chorus Line.ET, Diaspora.Ethio and Red Terror] my groups.google.com/group/playwright
Diary * diary.ru * Personal Politics * Film-North * Mailing List & News -- subscribe yourself * In Russian: Russian Play * 2002-2007
keys.txt : bloglines.com/blog/anatolant & new domains : teatr.us + u21.us [ Utopia Project ]
Project 2009 and filmplus.org/album : web-poetry? g(.)(.)gle groups? [wiki] -- dreaming, fantasizing... as if I indeed have in me another (bigger and better) show of myself.
filmplus.org/album : filmplus.org/anatoly & filmplus/org/ethio
... filmplus.org/uaf/2009 -- instead of diary: connections with UAF after UAF.