Is there any "narrative" in my life? Year-by-year story?
"Web-Year" -- and? ... returning to this a.diary after many years of silence -- it is my transition from UAF? Read webmaster's blog : a lot of work. Results? ... In 2000 I discover "diary" function at Tripod (years before blog-mania) -- and then the years of not using it. In 2007 I wanted to to fix my working space (web) and created many blogs, reflecting my many interests. Still I do not know the form (format?) of "Diary" ... Why? Webmaster and writer, film and theatre, and so on -- blogs are attached to websites on web and writing, film and theatre -- and to specific projects Russian writing (Antohins and Book of Fool)... Too complicated? Or maybe I still didn't come to the true FORMAT of web-writing? What if the BOOK IDEA lives through a new technological revolution, when the whole cyber universe is "under the covers"? What is the "book structure" is not negated but asks for even stronger forms? Is possible that book and theatre are merging now? [ I do not read enough to know if this subject is researched already. ] My reasons for "dancing around" of "diaries" -- video, sound? I have the same unanswered questions about beta.vtheatre.net -- virtual theatre forms. To view both questions about book and stage as ONE issue? Here enters my film pages... book-stage-film. I sense that technology is here, but aesthetics are not discovered. Is this trend for the Webmaster's Book? ... Okay, the ship is ready, could it take me to the new land? The name of my boat is WWW.
I couldn't make a name for myself in 60 years, it should say something... anatoly.org
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NEXT : 2008 "writing year"?
"Russian"? "Web" Identity? ... I do not know any of them. ... I am making a lot of blogs (different IDs) : writer's, webmaster's, anatoly.edu... MY Web IDs menu? Map? FAQ page + NEW ... too many "extra" elements; accidental. It's not unexpected that I began my "Russian Diaries" [in Russian] -- do I realize that cannot write in English? As if I can write in Russian. And this is besides the thought that "language" doesn't exist anymore. [ reading diary.vtheatre.net/2008 ] And you ask why the web? Or you didn't ask anything? You do not know about me... It only "looks like" book (with all the graphics I though in), I want it (writing) look like real (printed). I fake it. And if I am serious about doing it (writing) "full time," I better find the FORM of this illiterate lyric hero. ... this is important. I better stick with my instructional pages, the TEXT-books. It is the genre for illiterates. Maybe what I write if not "trash" but definitely the RUINS. Do I fell this new millenium? New century? New year? New day? New hour? You see, how bad things are. ... Anatoly Antohin, according to Yahoo : how does it look like? -- What to make of this picture? Mostly self-references; I know the pages, I made them. No need for diary, the machine dates your notes -- Big Brother, as we thought in my youth. Do I mind? Not anymore. Maybe I should. ... Any summary of "2007 pages"? Where? web.vtheatre.net & web.filmplus.org ? As usual, the story is missing, the stories of that year. Not in write.vtheatre.net... filmplus.org/write? Later, next year! "Later" never takes place later.... Here it is -- "OUR" 2007 [w] -- "International Polar Year" ? Did I noticed it here in Alaska? Deaths! That's how to remember the years of our lives. A catastrophes. New Movies? Later we'll remember the scientific discovering, but right away -- only crimes, like wars. ... What about this Ethiopian Millennium Year? Not much. In short, nothing. [ I should write about it, about what didn't happend. About the new millennium, when nothing happends -- and we have to invent history and make news. ] ...
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2005 & 2006 (years) are missing [ to restore ? ] I didn't have time for diaries -- 2000-2001-2202-2203-2004How much do I remember?
Who would remember if not I?
I work.
Nothing else?
... I cannot come back to my blogs "post" and re-write them. Blogging is anti-writing (no work = editing)
* 2007 : web-year -- diary.vtheatre.net [ ru ] : see other "2007" pages!
2008 -- at least, three main knot-pages : filmplus.org/2008 & vtheatre.net/net/2008 + diary.vtheatre.net/2008 (month-by-month)...
What am I doing?
I thought that 2007 was too much around "2007" -- closing my webpages?
Is it so?
What's next?
... interactivity instead of BOOK (*)
NPR stream
and
Dreams (pages)
I do not think I wanted something particular from life or myself. Yes, I like it (as they say), but I want to keep distance from it. The distance was there anyway. Including the distance from myself.
Maybe other times could be more suitable for me, but I doubt it.
Always the same disposition : I and everything else. Very Christian sense, I guess.
God?
"Better" world, better me, something I could give a grade "A"...
Where is it?
The world of hopes.
Nothing was perfect?
When I painted I did it before of 'appreciation' for beauty, but it beauty was in need of another life -- through me.
Appreciated beauty is the true beauty.
Beatrice? What is she without Dante? Without love for beauty...
Maybe it was Laura, I am losing my memory.
And only I know it.
diary.vtheatre.net/07 and 2008 : become a new project "2008"! diary.vtheatre.net/2008.0.html and so on.
... Month-by-month notes : MY 2008 [ to complete in 2009 ] -- Dreaming.
I got spoiled by my short few Soviet years, thinking that I could be paid for writing. What a thought! That somebody will pay to listen to what I have to say... Who? And I want to talk about myself only!
Strange?
But...
Strange, very strange.
The world "before me" -- no. The world I lived in -- I haven't got used to it. The "world after me"...
What do you say?
... How does my 2007 looks like?
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footnotes: 2007 -- NEW Millennium Year, according to Ethiopians and many other non-western calendars, including lunar... read my "2007" pages [notes for myself & menu]
Diary * diary.ru * Personal Politics * Film-North * Mailing List & News -- subscribe yourself * In Russian: Russian Play * 2002-2007
keys.txt : bloglines.com/blog/anatolant & new domains : teatr.us + u21.us [ Utopia Project ]
2009 endnotes: all I do is serving the mod. People? New society? Web is THEM, the oppsite of me...
Spead the good news, the knowledge! Plant the good, the kind, the enternal! "Narodnik" -- going to the people. The small one to be served. Tolstoy? Oh, doest it matter, the roots and origins? I am mortal and the humanity is to serve, how else? Whar else could justify my presence? God? They are in God's place, the church of humans without God...
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