Fedorov: Божественное откровение закончено, и должно начаться человеческое дело. * The Lord's revelation is over, now it's time for man's business! -- It is costly, you know, mister.
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2002. I am not working on my nonfiction. The "Russian Play" came upon me and keeps growing. Maybe because I didn't write in Russian for so long.
Diary of a Webman

Tech Title Page

Contrary to my expectations, the web only adds to my problems -- the lack of organization. I have to make another title page and I making more pages than I need.

No, I do not equate technology with death. I simply try to point that there is a field to study -- between life and death.

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The "original" texts were written ten years ago. Six years since they are online. The comments I make. when I have time or new thoughts.
Anatoly 2005
I know that soon I have to say goodbye not only to myself, women, people and angels. Goodbye to my diaries, language and writing. How soon? This is not an easy to explain in the world beyond. Talking from the future has its own problems, my friends...
[ webster ] GOD:
1 capitalized : the supreme or ultimate reality: as a : the Being perfect in power, wisdom, and goodness who is worshiped as creator and ruler of the universe -- b Christian Science : the incorporeal divine Principle ruling over all as eternal Spirit : infinite Mind
2 : a being or object believed to have more than natural attributes and powers and to require human worship; specifically : one controlling a particular aspect or part of reality
3 : a person or thing of supreme value
4 : a powerful ruler

Immortality of the Soul or Resurrection of the Dead? Is it old or new question? Is it time to ask this question again? Too soon? Later?

The Two Resurrections - spiritual (regeneration) and physical (bodily)?

"At the resurrection they neither marry nor are given in marriage, but are like angels in heaven" (Mt 22:30; cf. Mk 12:25). "They are equal to angels and are sons of God, being sons of the resurrection" (Lk 20:36).

Relax, just kidding!

Am I?


SECOND DEATH

The first was my birth.

Contents:

Part One. SUMMA TECHNOLOGIA

Part Two. APOCALYPSE, RESURRECTION AND THE LAST JUDGEMENT

Part Three. MY 1995 DEATH

The map of reading.

The fourth segment of the book -- the NOTES (reading of writing). Bring in my other notes on writing? I had to die to start writing.

June 6, 1998. I started a new website DEATH BOOK. I see a lot of notes on this subject as if my mind discovers the answers in this field to all my questions. I worked on the chapter about the death of Haile Sellassie, an old man's death. His life was over, how else does one see death if not as welcomed visitor? What else is there to wait for? Life has its limitations, I found it to be repetitive -- another day of the same. You run out of desires -- that's what experience gives you. Perhaps, the only novelty left is death.

What preoccupies me is the thought -- why death was the altimate evil throughout the history -- or why it's not a negative event for me? Death was the last and best God's invention. Why you I say that the old asks for death? Why not the best? The end must be there for everything. Death shapes. There is no begining without the end pending.

I struggle with this book, because this is the last book and because I am not ready. In "Self" I wrote about woman being the Holy Ghost or the Holy Spirit being a woman. Now is time to how woman can be the Father and the son at the Age of the Holy Ghost. What do I mean by that?

Well, the nature of technology, its communial attributes and its silent message can't be masculine. The communism I spent so many pages talking about is feminine, it's not man's kingdom. I didn't dare to tell it all in "Father-Russia" (I thought that the irony on the title would be enough). I was a man and couldn't write about the Woman-Father or the Woman-Son. Mother, daughter, sister, wife -- that is what I knew when I was a man. I had to die first, before I can write about being a woman. Man has to die. Man is dead. Neitzsche wrote it over hundred years ago, but I took my time to understand him. I had to see in his writing what he didn't see.

My stories are not complete. Our stories are unfinished. Why didn't we ask how Mary can give a birth to God without being God? How could be ignore the death and resurrection? Of course, she was the death of the Father and that's how the Age of the Son came to be. And what is wrong with the man's death, if it leads to the Resurrection? How could we misread the reason for Eve to be? How could I be so blind?

That is why I wrote "POV" -- to learn how to listen to the silent language of visions. Now it time to to speak about the language of touch, smell and taste. Oh, you wonder what does it have to with the technology! I see. You still think that it is nothing more than "technology"! You would like to think that you are not an integral part of this machine, this gaint organism we still call "human race"....

Maybe it's time to learn about languages beyond words and visions.

What is there not to understand in what I am saying? That I seaze to exist as a man when I get in my car? Oh, you don't think so? You don't see that my sight and hearing are nothing but the intruments of the motion.... Well, remember this paragraph, when will have an accident.

And where am I a man? I am a child in the womb with light and wormth, with the food in my refergirator -- I do not have to be a man. Not any more. Or maybe sometimes, when the accident happends, when the Woman-God stops protecting me. I feel it, it's worm here, always worm. I probably would miss it, if not for years in Alaska. You can't miss it here. That is the new father for you, the motherly embrace of the Second Nature.

You do not see Woman as Son? Wait a minite! You are reading in on your computer sceen! What do you this the hardware and sofware are? What do you think this data and information that doesn't require a single man's brain is about? It's not not the old fashion knowledge, no! It's the BODY of knowledge. do you think that you, an individual, have a chance to fight it? Not, the nature, my friends, including the second nature. Not the woman.

Yes, she is about Touch, Smell and Taste. You forgot your first months -- that is what the world was for you. I understand that you want to pretend that you are in control and, of course, you can pretend that you are free. That is what they, the children, think....

Look, I am not a real American, I remember myself becoming an American. I remember my shock that American bathrooms smell so nice. The world I came from had bathrooms that smell bad, as they are supposed to smell. It was in the airport and the smell hit me the moment I opened the door. I didn't know where the smell was coming from. Only when I came closer, the smell became stronger, I discovered the source of it. It was there, where the urine goes -- and the water flashes it down the smell comes out of the small, almost nothing, a tablet, at the bottom -- and you do smell yourself anymore.

Should I speak about the taste of the womb? Should talk about this magic sparling water? In Georgia, USSR, I visited the mineral waters place with parents; there were so many people, because it was the special place and very special water. You can have this sparkling water any time now. It tastes nice. You want to drink more. And more.

The second nature is designed to be "nice" to me. It's more nice that the first nature. It's so attentive to me and my needs. It has its own rules, but like mother it responds to everything I desire. The darkness turns into day the moment I walk in.... No, I never was treated this way by the Father.

And the God-Woman doesn't humiliate me, I still can be a man, if I want. I can the sports, the safe adventures and so on. But who would trade the love of mother and care you get? What for? The issue is solved, we passed into the New Age of the Comforter. We are in paradise....

I can tell why I, the Woman, do it. Because I love him. Because he is always my child, who needs me. Because there will no other cross for him, never! Because he is weak and the biggest his weakness is his strenth. Because he can't get hurt and I am here to watch him not to be get himself hurt. I wouldn't let him to hurt himself. Not again.

Nobody gets hurt now. Not here. Not when I am in control.

... It was on the flight from Anchorage to Fairbanks, it was late and the plane was almost empty. Nobody next to me, in front or behind. I was summer I could see the ocean, the mountain, the land below and I knew that we were about to land in an hour, but I felt that we will never do it. That I will continue to slide between the sky with the white childish clouds and the green earth. Forever. Everything I wanted before left me; I had no desire to tell something I didn't tell, to get, to do... I was free from myself. It lasted for eternity.

"We are approaching ..."

The sounds and the smell of the Alaska Air miracle machine came back...

NIKOLAI BERDYAEV (1874-1948): Ontologically, freedom precedes God and arises from nothingness, "non-ground." [ metaphysics of freedom ] Epstein ****


Next -- HyperDrama: in Russian -- 2002
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If only you could read my books in order (HIM, Father-Russia, PostAmeriKa, Self, POV), you would see the price we have to pay for the future. The Peradise is very expensive. The only excuse we have that our lives mean nothing and we waist them anyway. Why not to make labor a virtue?

I wish I could make some comments on Fedorov's points (16, right table), but perhaps, it's self-explainatory... More interesting is what is there, in the world of immortals. Oh, that's where we should spend time thinking! Well, read Fedorov or Andreev, if you have nothing better to do.

TOPICS: drama + comedy + postmodern + time + space + past + present + future + death + sex + resurrection +
I am sure that I wrote it somewhere -- I do not believe in God, but I believe that God will be created by us. "Odyssey" a la Kubrick? Somewhat, I guess. More complicated, much more complex... We dream about it, we need it, we are building it...

 


  


"Why do I write about it?" Better question is "Why do I think about it?" Or ven better -- "Are we there already?" We turned history and nature into museums (15. ..."which works also as a laboratory of resurrection science." Perhaps, that is why there is a sense of "cemetory" in them.)

And how do you like the last point #16? The world without children! Forever! [ Never mind the mothers and sisters missing at Fedorov's Resurrection! ] Is it coming?

Do you think he is crazy? Why don't have a serious talk with your Christian friend? A Study of the Resurrection from eschatology.org *

Resurrection of the Body: At Christ's return the general resurrection will be simultaneous for both the just and the unjust (Daniel 12:2; John 5:28,29; Romans 2:6-16; 2th 1:6-10), followed immediately by the final judgment. [ Alas, the order is reversed. But this is theology, not Theology of Technology. AA ]

But about me, Anatoly?

What about Anatoly? I may ask.

Will I be resurrected?

Will I live forever?

What about my immortal soul?

Do you have one?

Listen, why do you think I am doing everything on the Internet?

I am half way there!

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