Ethiopian Millennium : sellassie.net
... How could I be on the side of Russia in conflict with Georgia? 30 : 1 -- population alone.
Never mind, that intellectual must be "against" the government of his country (who else would be on the side of Individual, 'minority") -- in any country and any time.
In time of war? Even against Hitler?
Russia couldn't be right even it's not conflict with Georgia, but with America.
Am I against America's use of force? Strong must restrain himself.
Well, even movies (western) show it.
... I thought that by now I would be writing books. And die as a writer.
Web won't support me financially. Any hope?
Individual is Nothing, said communism. Amen. I never was.
anatolant, shame on you! For your numbers, the traffic, for popularity!
... clicknotes.com/hamlet -- here it is, the disgrace.
Russian Thoughts... for diary.vtheatre.net/2008 [ru] "Thoughts in Russian"
... "Two Ws" : 2007 -- Web-Year, 2008 -- Writing Year?
Anatoly XXI write-blog
ANT = webSHOWbiz : "writing for them" -- this is the only way to have "Anatoly's pages without Anatoly"!
And this is my conclusion of over ten years online?
... from my post on my RU blog: Everything in comparison
anatolant -- 2008-09-11 01:44 pm :
Khodorkovsky is overrated in economics no less than Putin in Politics. There was no real economy and no real politics in Soviet Union. Compare Khodorkovsky with "red directors" and Putin with his predecessors? Russia still has no real businessmen or politicians -- and this why the word "elite" is used. Almost as "aristocracy" -- which is STATUS, not PROFESSION. And you are right, that's sad.
The weakness of the West? Just because Russian economy is not real market economy and they are about to pay the price for pretending for so long? Being aggressive is the way to cover the problems (in case if Russians would start asking Kremlin questions) -- and we debate if the West is weak? Why?
Because we didn't get into war with Russia?
The book about the "Sunset of the West" was published in 1914. The Soviets were promising the death of Europe the whole past century. Do we have to react to what they say or maybe for a change we should start THINKING about our own problems? Or we don't have them, do we?
... filmplus.org/politics/2008 -- last time I write about politics?
anatolant.livejournal.com -- RU ? About RU only.
flickr and picasa -- visual guides.
2009 - After Theatre UAF
Why not 2010 ?
MY portals : igoogle + my.yahoo.com + live.com + my nytimes.com & more
... "3 Days of Sorrow" in Moscow's propaganda war, following mini-war with Georgia. Year of Sorrow for Russia! No words for hypocrisy -- Being Russian is being a hypocrite? Here is the deep foundation of the Soviet Era -- Lie = Truth. End of Russia? Another stage of disintegration, as a result of Putin's restoration of USSR? ... [8.13]
10.1. I knew that I lost when I was 15. Even since I try to prove that my discovery was wrong. My feeling then -- no way I can win.
And now -- I didn't win.
But what the process?
Keep the distance with life. Stay out.
It is all what I have to say?
Don't mix with them. The people. Remember it.
I am not an enemy of the people. Am I a friend?
"They" never could be my family. Only one by one can enter my heart.
I do not have any place in me for anybody. Even myself.
Who is welcome?
... and still do not have that sense -- yes, that's how it should be!
2009 -- Ethiopia... lul.vtheatre.net/2010
I have to have the 3-year (business) plan...
Know thou self?
You have to watch him!
-- How do you do today?
I do not know. I have no time to notice myself. i never ask myself how am I doing?
I do not paint anymore. I write no poetry. I do not read poetry. I read very little. Mostly online.
Am I there? (Alive)
"I thought you died," said the neighbor who didn't see me the whole summer.
He repeat it again. And again.
He was surprised that he was wrong.
Who did I say back?
I do not remember, that wasn't the question. It was a statement.8.11.08. I do not have "opinions", because I myself not interested in them -- "Special Opinion" [name of the program on Russian Radio, vs. "regular"?]. I noticed it after reading [and even posting a few times] blogs or forums. Russian-Georgian war, death of Solzhenitsyn -- I am not sure that I want to be a part of the debates... Why not?...
... as I needed another proof that I write for myself. Literary.
Dialog with Life? -- yes, but not with people.
-- anatolant.livejournal.com, my.telegraph.co.uk/anatolant... -- no wonder that I didn't keep up with my Russian online presence. I have no "friends", no followers, I am anti-social.
As if web was invented for my, the silent connection with the world.
... Passing through life unnoticed.Blame? Blame -- and what? What is next? More endless talks in UN? Kicking Russia out from G7? Stopping using Russian gas? Maybe kicking US out of NATO? ... list for you to complete. All are wrong! The world is (openly) back to "Might is right". China to blame? Monaco? [ they did nothing! ] What will EU do? Stop pretending that we have United States of the World! Stop pretending the humanity rules! Everyone for himself ... as usual. Indication of it is the word "blame" -- what's new beside this "blame game"? Who has the courage to ACT on humanitarian grounds? RE-act as in Kosovo? Hypocrisy! Watch the Olympics, celebration of this hypocracy. We are not dead. Yet. Nothing else matters.my most recent (8.11) post for guardian.co.uk -- How much is the west to blame for war in Georgia?3.1.08 -- I am 59.-- and 2008 American Politics? [Book of Fool, usa]
... nothing happens.
not till my death, I guess.
... and then?
... 5.1. The end of the semester, another (academic) year ends. Should I look back at 2007 (missing page) : postmortem. I have to make more cuts in what I do...
But I just started sellassie.info !
"Russian Pages" --
I still behave as if I would live forever.
Textbooks? What do I care after retirement?
I have one (last) year to rap it up.
6.8 -- still working as webmaster.
... I lost it. I'm lost.
... 2008 Elections : To be with nation one should be against its government? And electing president who would be against the government. Why would presidential election (in America) be direct otherwise?
Caligari : Horror against Terror -- stupidity has a price : you die
Catharsis and Lack of It -- where to write about it? newamerican.biz? myspace.com/anatolant
... anatolant.vox.com [VT]
To Foreign Lands [ Whitman, Walt, 1819-1892. Leaves of Grass ]
I heard that you ask'd for something to prove this puzzle the New World,
And to define America, her athletic Democracy,
Therefore I send you my poems that you behold in them what you wanted.
How about that for politics?
com.txt : google & amazon advertising -- new ways?
Where to collect "2008" -- http://my.telegraph.co.uk/anatolant ? [anatolant.blogspot.com]
Diary * diary.ru * Personal Politics * Film-North * Mailing List & News -- subscribe yourself * In Russian: Russian Play * 2002-2007
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sCf515excHA [ Anatoly UAF ]
Saving Anatoly* filmplus.org.uaf/2008 -- Writing at the bottom, as if hiding. Self-Evaluation (last?)
Is it for "Self" (not for UAF)?
"My Periods" The Second Decade (between age of ten and twenty) -- by 1968-70 I knew what I want and it was too late!. When you are twenty you should be somebody, have your own voice, at least. You should know who you are, at the minimum, to be in the right "business"... you can be undiscovered (even by yourself), but there must be "something" to discover.
In my case between 1970 and 1980 -- and I knew it's not happening, I am missing -- what? my life.
In my American experience by 1990 I knew -- I didn't get it (another ten years).
Another ten years (academia) -- and in 1998 I went "web," trying to salvage my theatre/teaching experience...
In 1998 it was obvious that I am in the wrong place (Alaska), if not wrong business (University).
support : filmplus.org/ethio blog * vtheatre.net blog * anatolant.livejournal.com [ new ] 2008-2009 my.telegraph.co.uk/anatolant [politics/write] footer.txt -- 2008-2009 : Grand (World) Depression in place of (American) Great Depression.
keys.txt : bloglines.com/blog/anatolant & new domains : teatr.us + u21.us [ Utopia Project ]
2009, looking back : web and pages. I do not think that I can do much online from Ethiopia, but my 2007-2008 webmaster's efforts had little effect on traffic. And writing?
The passed year was not "writing" year. I hardly can read. I glance through.
What are my ten years of webbing and 20 years of teaching?
A pause, silence.